gone back to the draft paper I am co-writing with a PhDer\u2026.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\nI could keep adding to the list of things not done, but these are the particular set that were associated with feeling guilty.<\/p>\n
Now, I\u2019m pretty sure that if I asked a number of my colleagues they would come up with a todo list too. The details would be different, but in common would be things that are urgent that aren\u2019t done, and things that are nearly as urgent and should be done. By woukd they feel guilty about them? Is there a pattern in what I feel guilty about? Because, you see, not everything on my todo list induces guilt.<\/p>\n
My<\/i> guilt comes from the fact that I haven\u2019t got to things where other people are involved. People that are important to me. It\u2019s the people I\u2019m letting down that matter. I don\u2019t feel particularly guilty for instance that I haven\u2019t quite sorted out my ORCID although I can see that it could be helpful. I don\u2019t feel guilty that I haven\u2019t recommended any books to the library or that I haven\u2019t checked lately to see if my online profile is coherent. No. My guilt happens because I am holding up other people and potentially causing them to lose time, adjust their schedules, scrabble around to fill the gap that I have created. This kind of guilt is a low level feeling of worry, of unhappiness that I am harming, or will harm another person.<\/p>\n
And my guilt goes beyond the current situation. Although I do get things done, the guilty feeling remains. Guilt seems to be an endemic academic emotion, well, certainly for me. I am never caught up. I always have people hanging on what I am not<\/em> doing. Therefore, I compel myself to work on the weekend, regularly, as means to keep a vague check on the list of things that affect other people, the list that I can\u2019t ever actually completely manage.<\/p>\nSo I\u2019m pondering. Is guilt integral to the performativity of the contemporary academy? Is it an essential emotional companion to the intensification and acceleration of academic work? If emotion sits between \u2018structure and agency\u2019, then system is certainly implicated.<\/p>\n
Well \u2013 \u00a0maybe yes and maybe no. If all I had to do was to satisfy abstract bureaucratic measures then I wouldn\u2019t be nearly so keen to get things done. It is, perhaps somewhat perversely, a kind of resistance, a desire for academic relationships that are pushing my guilt\u2026<\/p>\n
So there is no point telling me to take time off. Nor to adopt some fancy new kind of time management system. Nor to try out some kind of life hack. Nor to say no. Nor to just make better choices. I know all this and I can actually do all of those things thanks very much \u2013 my point here is that I choose<\/i> not to \u2013 because guilt is not about personal management\u2026 Academic guilt as I experience it is not amenable to simple and rational intervention, because (certainly in my case) it is a response that comes from a commitment to maintaining a sociality and relationality that is fragile and undercut by competition, audit and abrasive organisational cultures. It is deeply, and at the same time as personal, profoundly structural and systemic.<\/p>\n
Well that\u2019s my current theory.<\/p>\n
Guilt keeps me working on those things that might support collegiality, a gift economy, a more generous academic culture\u2026 and yes, it\u2019s clear how this is also simultaneously made risky when it\u2019s impossible to meet promises and expectations.<\/p>\n
I guess I\u2019m just wondering aloud, and in public, how widespread academic guilt is. Is it now a common form of academic emotional labour? \u00a0How important is guilt, driven by an ethic of care, to the regulation and completion of academic work in the contemporary university?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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